i'm more confused now than before...
shucks! i dont know what to think...
i don't know who to believe...
i don't know what to do...
i don't know what to say...
haayy...my friends are right..i should think it over...
i should ponder on things...
i can't battle my emotions,you see...
i will just have to go with it but still keep myself sane...hehe
Thursday, March 30, 2006Y
haapy birthday howie! ^_^
happy birthday to my bestfriend! :D thank you sa lahat...thanks for being my bestfriend.hehe.thank you for trusting me and thank you din sa mga experiences.i just wanna tell you that you taught me lots of things..you may not know it but yes..you taught me lllloooootttsss of things!sorry kung gna-away kita most of the time. ^_^..basta..thank you sa lahat2..alam mo na yun.:D stay the same ha kahit college na tayo.ma-miss tlga kita.promise! and 17 ka na,better grow up.hehe.^_^ HAPPY BITHDAY ULIT!!! ^_^
8:06 AM 
Wednesday, March 29, 2006Y
finally
first of all...i would like to tell you that i feel that there ain't no need for an entry about the intrams and the retreat.^_^late na kasi masyado.hehe.and besides...i've written about it somewhere else.hehe.and now for the main topic...finally! its our graduation day! haha! i already have my diploma ^_^ i'm just sooo happy.at least those 3 excruciating years paid off. :D congratz to batch 2k6! fly high ILLUMINA! let's conquer the world.hehe ^_^and another thing...i've finally made up my mind about something.i'm not dumb anymore..i know college has lots of things in store for me but i should concentrate on my studies first.first things first,right?! ^_^
lastly...i've decided to follow my friends' advice ^_^
5:33 AM
musings of a bored mind
got nothing to do...still feeling lazy to write something bout the intrams ^_^ im just bored...haayy..we've got 3 days till grad...i hope everything will be fine till wednesday..i hope we'll all be happy when we leave pisay..its really hard for me to accept that i'll be parting ways with my friends...shucks! the drama..haha!well..i'd better go before my cheesy-ness stikes again. :)
6:21 AM
i can't think of any title for this post.this is a useless post anyway.hehe.
hmm...i just want to share this quote that i think would best describe what i really feel right now.
"the heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of"
hmm...find out more bout this on my other blog..that's if you can find it.hehe.^_^
6:05 AM
Thursday, March 23, 2006Y
me,myself and i
hmmm..this is not the entry i promised in my previous entry (the one about the intrams and the retreat..but i'll be working on it this weekend ^_^).oh my! i just hate myself sometimes.why can't i get hold of myself whenever he's near?! why can't i simply act normally? why can't i just be me?
i can't give people reasons why i act so strange when you're near coz i don't even know myself.i tried so hard to act as if nothing's wrong or something but i just can't help it.i really lose my marbles when we're together in public.maybe its because of the teasing.but its really different when its just you and me...really different.haayy..i hope i can turn back time and do the things i know i should've done.but too bad...we can't just press "rewind" and be at that moment where we want to be.
6:38 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006Y
hmmm
i'll be updating soon.i'm just too tired to type a very long entry now.i've got lots to tell...about our retreat and the intrams.well..i added a new link to someone's blog.check it out ^_^
6:23 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006Y
whatever!
i'm pissed off--again!!! the same friend i was talking about in my previous entries.you did it again.you've done the same mistake and gave me the same reason why you did it!i'm really pissed this time.i think what i say means nothing to you,my opinions don't count.i guess you'll never change,you really disappointed me this time.sorry if you think i'm over reacting,i just cant help it.you've done this several times already...i just dont know what to do this time.iys good that i wont be seeing you for two days,i think that will help...but as of now,i really really really hate you!grr
6:48 AM
the past days were very tiring for me.we were cramming our cheerdance so we have exert more effort.and my mood is quite affected.in fact,i almost had a fight with a friend but i didn't let things to get worse.we're really soo busy these days and i son't get to see HIM often.we stay at the gym to practice while he stays at the academe doing something i know nothing of.^_^ hehe
well...i guess today was the most tiring day!though we only had our practice during the afternoon ,kapuy pa rin masyado.we practiced our stunts and some new steps today and i fell many times.i even had a bruised knee! huwaah! anyways, i love what i'm doing so i won't complain..pero kapuy lang talaga xa.haha!^_^
i hope we can finish our cheerdance..and i hope we'll win!!!^_^ i hope our efforts would pay off in the end.i know we can do this...i have faith in my batchmates.go illumina! ^_^
5:56 AM
haayyy
bakit di ko matiis friends ko?hmmm...i said in my previous entry that i won't forgive my friend but argh! i ate my words for the hundreth time! (nam,nam..sarap!) i did not totally forgive him but we kinda settled things earlier this day.in fact, we even went to his house to retype our pinoy project.but i'm still hurt bout what he did,i don't trust him now like before.haayy..too bad we only have few more days before grad.i hope we can settle everything before grad...haayy
5:58 AM
feeling hurt
argh! i had this little fight with a dear friend.well he's one of my closest friends but i don't if he knows that i consider him as one.he's one the the few people i can tell my darkest secrets to but now, he really did hurt my feelings.
this happened several times already but i forgave him beacuse he promised he wouldn't do it again.but sadly,he did it again and it really pissed me off!!! he lied to me,after all this time,i thought he trusts me but he doesn't.i cried last night because of this.i don't know, im just so hurt...
he kept on saying sorry and asking what he can do to make it up to me.but i just can't find room for forgiveness right now...maybe in the coming days but certainly not now.beacuse of this, i won't give a damn from now on!he can't expect anything from me, not a single thing.this should give him a lesson.coz if it wouldn't....i don't what else to do...
5:23 AM
Saturday, March 04, 2006Y
new layout
i obviously changed my layout to fit my mood.just bear with me, i'm losing my sanity more often these days.hehe.for the few people who visit me blog,please let me know.leave a tag or something^_^.i guess i'll be writing more entries the next days, i've got all the time.exams are finally over and i have lots of time to blab my sentiments.forgive me for being soooo senti these days.just cant help it.for those people who cant take my cheesy-ness,don't don't bother reading my entries again...no one wants you here! okeis?
anyways...the pictures above were taken during th prom.just wanna share them ^_^
7:32 AM
untitled
*~*~*~*~people ask me why of all people i chose to like you~*~*~*~*
first of all, i did not choose to like you.its the thing called fate.and i can't give then an answer,i don't know why i like you.it just happened that i like you.and i think that i don't need any reason to like somebody.my friends keep on telling me that i deserve someone better.they say that you don't deserve me.kaw daw kasi yung type na walang pakialam...and that makes you very unlikeable.
ugh!sometimes, i just hate myself for liking you.i feel so unnoticed, so unappreciated.but sometimes,you really make my heart skip beats.those were the times when you took my breath away and made me feel like i'm the most loved girl in the world.but you're so inconsistent.sometimes you notice me, sometimes you don't.that's why i have so many doubts...so many questions.and i know i have to find the answers soon or i'll be losing my sanity.
there's this other girl.my friends keep me updated on the two of you.they say you're very sweet when you're together.they say that you already seem to like her.well,she's not the only girl i'm jealous with.i think there are 3 of them.quite insecure huh?at least i keep all this insecurity confined within me.i'd rather keep it than let people know that i'm such a loser for being so insecure.
now that we have only24 days till we graduate,i hope that the next days would be happy for the both of us.even if we would spend those days living our own seprate lives,i hope that those days would be blissful.just by seeing you happy,i know that i've already won you.
i really hope to see you in college.i hope that we would still be friends...though we don't talk that much and we don't really spend time with each other,i'm really gonna miss you...
1:54 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006Y
at last!!!
wahoo! exams are finally over! we're finally graduating in 28 days...well..that's the sad part and i don't want ot think about it this time.i want to enjoy the coming days with my batchmates coz i will surely miss all of them.huwaah!
upcat results are out and i passed! its surely one good reason to celebrate.hehe!i qualified for DILIMAN and i was able to pass B.S BIO.its a quota course and that makes it more satisfying for me.^_^ almost 50 of us (that's more than half of the batch) qualified for diliman.i guess i'll be seeing the same faces in college.well not all but most of my batchmates are going to diliman.hehe.sadly, my unicorn didn't pass.that made me really sad (i'll write another entry for this one).i think that's all for now, i still have to prepare for the club assessment tomorrow.i'm so nervous! i can't imagine myself talking infront of the MANCOM.shucks! but i know i can do this.ako pa?! hehe.
6:16 AM
cecs
