hmmm..may 5th wasn't really my idea of celebrating 7 months of seemingly eternal bliss. things were very complicated that day, one fight after another and my love story almost had a not-so-happy ending. i don't why we fight often these past few days, i'm not used to it. sometimes i just want to back to UP coz i think if we're together things won't be like this but i know that would be impossible right now.

they say that distance makes the heart grow fonder? how? through fights and petty quarrels? well, i just don't like how distance "makes" the heart grow fonder! i know that couples have to go through this kind of stuff but i'm still adjusting to it, i think we both are. i just hope both of us can endure who knows whatever may may come our way.

the thing that really bothers me is the reason why we fought. both of us are bothered with the other person's past. i admit that i'm still not convinced that he isn't over with his past and i think that he's not convinced that i am over with my past. both of us have uncertainties and i just don't like it. i'm insecure of my boyfriend's past and i'm hating it. he said that i should trust him but i'm not convinced that everything's over between him and her.. argh! but i guess i should learn to trust him. i don't want to live the rest of my life in doubt and feeling obscure. i'm trying my best not to doubt him. love comes with trust and i'm gonna live by that quote from now on.

we've managed to settle things at the end of the day and somehow had a happy 7th "fifth day of the month". though we're not together im glad we resolved the conflict. we didn't start the day right but im glad we ended it right. i hope the things we've said and realized will serve as a lesson for both of us. im still looking forward to a future with him and i know that entails a lot of pains and sacrifices. i know that i can pass through all of them..with him by my side. :D