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Monday, May 28, 2007Y
magulong buhay=magulong entry. hehe

dunno how to start this entry. bsta gusto ko lang mgsulat ng kahit ano,nsa momentum ako ngaun e. pero sa sobrang dami ng gusto kong isulat, di ko alam san mgccmula. haha! :D

ang hirap nga nman tlga mgbigay ng advice noh? di mo alam kung tama bah ung iaadvice mo, bka naman kc masama mging resulta naman. kc nman iba-iba tlga mga tao, kahit na nga cguro ung mga pnkapredictable na tao ay di pa rin tlga ntn mbbsa kung anong nilalaman ng utak nya. ul never know db kung ano ung tlagang gusto nya sa buhay?

san ba natin binabatay ung mga advice na bnibigay ntn? experiences nman db? kumbaga, experience is d best teacher nga daw kaya nman ung mga nttunan ntn sa mga pnagdaanan natin e sinusubukan din ntn isahre sa ibang tao when we think they need it. pero panu nman kung di pareho ung ngng resulta ng gnawa mo nung ang kaibigan mo na ung gumawa nun? konsensya din ntn un db? haayy..hirap nga nman tlga.

on the other hand, mhirap din nman magdecide kung ssundin mo bah advice ng kaibigan mo db? syempre we trust our friends pero nandun pa dn ung fear na panu kung di mganda ung kinalabasan? e di lalong ggulo buhay mo pag ganun? we tell our friends about our problems pero alam mismo ntn sa sarili ntn na di ntn maexplain ang tlagang nangyayari. no matter how hard we try, me ibang details tlga na nkkalimutan o pilit na tinatago. bka ung mga bagay na un pa ang mkaapekto sa mggng resulta ng advice na binigay ng friend mo.

minsan pa e ung mga taong akala ntn na mpagkkatiwalaan ntn, ung mga tipong mkkinig pag me problema ka e cla pa ung ttalikod sau. ung iba, they pretend that they are listening but they really don't care about you and your helluvah life. sabi ko nga knina, di nman tlga ntn mbbsa utak ng mga tao. wla akong gustong ptamaan dito, gusto ko lang isulat ung naiisip ko. i mean general observations to a kaya wla nman sanang violent reactions. hehe

hmmm. ang gulo na bah ng mga sinasabi ko? bsta ang point ko lang is tau lang nman tlaga cguro nkkaintindi sa mga sarili ntn. cguro we need other people to help us through the process of discovering ourselves pero parang guide lang cla. ikaw pa din ggawa ng lahat. no one can understand u better than urself, un lang ung point. pinahaba ko pa noh? hehe

another thing.

me ibang tao lang tlga sa mundo na di pa nkkita mga sarili nila. kumbaga, hinahanap pa daw nila sarili nila kaya nman humihingi cla ng space and tym. kahit anong suyo gawin mo sa kanila e wala tlgang epekto. binigay mo na lahat, pati pride mo below sea level na e ala pa din epekto. me kilala akong mga tao na ganito ang pnagdadaanan ngaun and it pains me to see them like that. close frends ko cla and di ko kaya na tumunganga lang at panoorin ang isang mgandang samahan na mwala nlng ng basta basta.

para dun sa taong hinahanap pa ang sarili nya: mahal ka ng taong below sea level na ang pride. alam kong alam mo un, ang problema e naapreciate mo bah mga gnagawa nya para sau? bakit ganun gnagwa mo sa knya? ang akin lng nman e pagusapan nyo ng maaus mga bagay-bagay,di ung bgla nlng nya mlalamang me ksama ka na palang iba. ganun bah ang nghhanap ng sarili? don't miss the little things he has done for you. appreciate them and see the effort behind those things. he has changed a lot when you two got together, i know you also see that. what more can a man offer to someone he luvs but putting aside everyhting that he is and be a better person for that one girl he loves so much?

para nman dun sa lalakeng below sea level na ang pride: TAMA NA! i think uv done ur part and uv tried ur best to save ur relationship. i think its her tym to do her part. sabi mo ayaw mo tigilan ang pagsuyo kc takot kang bka tuluyan na syang lumayo? haller? e kung ganun nga mangyari, move on! kung di nya nkkita mga gnagawa mo e di sya worthy ng mga bagay na un. sabi mo kc maganda sya at mdali syang mkkhanap ng iba, gwapo ka din nman db? kung bothered ka kc umaaligid mga ex nya at lagi sya sinusuyo, be diffrent from ol those guys! lalaki lang ulo nya pag ganun din gnawa mo. let her learn her lesson this tym. its not that im judging her, frend ko din sya. bsta, alam kong ubos na pride mo. wag naman ganun.leave sumthing for urself. wag kang mgself pity okeis? bsta, kahit anong mangyari nandito lang kmi ni ga kung kelangan mo ng kaibigan :D andito nman kmi para sa inyong dlawa, handa kaming dumamay sa kung anumang sakit na nararamdaman nyo ngaun. at di lang kmi ang handang tumulong, alam kong mdami pa ang concerned.

para nman ke ga: masaya ako na kahit mdami din taung pinagdadaanan ngaun e di pa tau umabot sa point na parang hopeless na taung dlawa. bsta, blessed lang ako to have you ga. alang bbitiw a? kaya ntn to :D hehe

so ayun..i guess un lang nman gusto ko isulat e. sensya na mgulo, bsta type ko lang gusto ko sabihin. sobrang rando lang ng entry na to. cge, til my next update! hehe ^_^

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007Y
past! past! past!

hmmm..may 5th wasn't really my idea of celebrating 7 months of seemingly eternal bliss. things were very complicated that day, one fight after another and my love story almost had a not-so-happy ending. i don't why we fight often these past few days, i'm not used to it. sometimes i just want to back to UP coz i think if we're together things won't be like this but i know that would be impossible right now.

they say that distance makes the heart grow fonder? how? through fights and petty quarrels? well, i just don't like how distance "makes" the heart grow fonder! i know that couples have to go through this kind of stuff but i'm still adjusting to it, i think we both are. i just hope both of us can endure who knows whatever may may come our way.

the thing that really bothers me is the reason why we fought. both of us are bothered with the other person's past. i admit that i'm still not convinced that he isn't over with his past and i think that he's not convinced that i am over with my past. both of us have uncertainties and i just don't like it. i'm insecure of my boyfriend's past and i'm hating it. he said that i should trust him but i'm not convinced that everything's over between him and her.. argh! but i guess i should learn to trust him. i don't want to live the rest of my life in doubt and feeling obscure. i'm trying my best not to doubt him. love comes with trust and i'm gonna live by that quote from now on.

we've managed to settle things at the end of the day and somehow had a happy 7th "fifth day of the month". though we're not together im glad we resolved the conflict. we didn't start the day right but im glad we ended it right. i hope the things we've said and realized will serve as a lesson for both of us. im still looking forward to a future with him and i know that entails a lot of pains and sacrifices. i know that i can pass through all of them..with him by my side. :D

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