~fAeRiELaNd~

mabuhay ka boyfriend! :)

2010-01-25T09:04:00.000-08:00

My labs qualified for the interview sa PGH and I couldn't be more proud :D

I have always thought that he was smart, and I knew he would make it. To labs, congrats! :) kaya mo din yung interview, don't worry :*

To all my friends who also qualified, congratulations! :) Goodluck na lang sa interview, hope you will all make it :)

when paranoia strikes

2010-01-12T06:39:00.000-08:00

there's no way to stop it..

but still I'll try. I want us to be different.

7th Monthsary :)

2010-01-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

Today was fuuuuuun! :)

We went to QC Circle to try the rides in the newly opened Circle of Fun. The rollercoaster was scary @_@ It was quite unsafe because that thing that's supposed to secure you in place (sorry I don't know what its called) is not actually locked. So you can fall anytime during the ride.

The Sea Dragon thing was fun too. Its like EK's Anchors Away, only a much smaller version but the experience was quite the same. Unfortunately, walang ride all you can so we were not able to try all the rides due to lack of funds. Haha! XD

After some sight seeing in the amusement park, we rented bikes. Weee! It was fun fun fun! Except for some people who kept crossing the streets and some other annoying bike renters who suddenly stop in front of you X( Too bad it drizzled a little so we were forced to cut short our bike ride. So we decided to stop by the Quezon Museum instead. It always makes me happy to be in museums. I love seeing old photos and antique furnitures :)

It was a very simple date, perhaps one of the simplest dates we've had but it was really a fun day :) To labs, happy 7th monthsary :) More daysaries, monthsaries and anniversaries to come po sa atin! I lvoe you! :*

Frustrations

2010-01-08T08:39:00.000-08:00

I feel so dumb these days. Since I saw my NMAT score, I've always felt so dumb. I know I could've done better, way way way better than what I got. But then again, regrets always come last and now I might just have to live with the fact that I might not get into the med school I want :(

I hate myself for being so lenient, for not managing my time well, and of course, for not trying hard enough. I know I could've done it, only if I tried harder.I could give so many excuses on why I got a low score but still, the fact remains that I failed. Those excuses are just for me to make me feel better about myself.

Everything that's happened made me look back to my whole college life. Before I entered college, I told myself that I would study hard. Tama na yung sobrang tamad ako nung high school. But things remained unchanged, I have always settled for mediocracy. I tried avoiding the spotlight to save myself from the pressure and responsibility that comes with it. If only I was brave enough to try harder, I could've been happier right now.

I know I can't live on regrets forever. What I can do right now is to try harder, prove myself more. And maybe someday, I can be happy about my life again.

I Should've Known Better

2010-01-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

After my last relationship ended, I told myself not to get too attached to someone. But then, I fell in love with this guy and can't seem to imagine life without him. I should've known better. And now that graduation is fast approaching and we'll soon be going our separate ways, I'm all down and depressed.

He always tries to comfort me, saying that the future isn't that bleak. And I hate myself for being so afraid of facing a possible future without him. It has always been my fault from the start, I knew that someday this might happen but still, I let myself get too attached. I hate goodbyes, I hate being left alone, especially by the people I love. But I guess its time to face the sad truth..

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER...

quoted from mich's post

2009-09-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

Paano mo masasabing special ka sa isang tao kung ang bawat ginagawa niya sayo ay ginagawa din niya sa iba?

--kaya minsan, mas gusto ko ung masama ang ugali.. ung tipong Shan Cai-Dao Ming Ssu ang drama (tama ba spelling?kinuha ko lng kc yan sa wikipedia).. basta ganun, naiinis lng tlga ako kaya gusto kong magblog..

naiinis ako sa mga taong di marunong makiramdam, pwede ba.. bwiset.

o ayan, tatahimik na ako.. baka puro mura nlng malagay ko dito e. p*ta tlga.

ISSUE ULIT

2009-01-20T08:36:00.000-08:00

be extra careful with what you say

or the things you tell to other people

or at least lower down your voices when you're gossiping..

and when you gossip, make sure you get all the details right..

'cause i heard you

and i was not pleased with what you said..

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yan ung entry ko sa multiply.. at may nagreply, cguro nga natamaan.. di ko naman idedeny na para sa kanila yung post na yun.. pero dito nlng ako magcocomment, kasi alam ko wlanag makakabasa pag dito ako nagblog.. para na din di pa lumaki ung issue..

ganito un, kagabi kasi.. past 1am na ata yun, matutulog na kami ng rumate ko.. but wait! we can hear loud voices from the next room kaya naman di kami makatulog.. unang nag-react ang rumate ko, tinry nya patahimikin ung mga nsa kabilang kwarto sa pamamagitan ng pag whistle.. ung "pssssssssssssssst!" di ko kc alam ano ung tamang word para dun, bsta un.. tapos di pa din tumigil, ako ako naman ang nagpsssssssssssssssssssst!.. pero wala pa rin.. hinintay ko muna.. mga 10 mins cguro, bka sakali tumahimik na cla.. but no again! ganun pa din.. kaya naman nag-knock ako sa wall.. at ayun narinig nila sa wakas at medyo tumahimik na cla...

tapos today, kinuwento nung mga nsa kabilang kwarto ang nangyari kagabi sa kanilang friends.. at narinig ko yun. pero ung pagkukuwento nila e para bang may halong sarcasm.. alam mo un? yjung tipong feeling mo ikaw pa ang mapapasama sa ginawa mong pagpatahimik sa kanila? kaya naman nagblog ako sa multiply..

at ayun, nagreply ang mga ate.. nagcomment ung isa dun sa entry nung isa, eto ung sabi "Dapat meron din nito: "To you, who thought we were talking about you." Hahahaha.".. o c'mon.. sinong unang nagviolent reaction sa entry ko? i did not mention any name pero nagreact kau. so guilty kau.. at wag kang hypocrite at ideny na hindi nga ako ung pinag-usapan nyo kc alam ko at narinig ko ung conversation ninyo.

eto pa ang isa

"Pero kung ang chismis na narinig ng isang tao ay MALI pala, tsk tsk. Sino kaya ang dapat mahiya?"

sino nga ba ang dapat mahiya? ako na kumatok sa wall para ipaalam na nakakaistorbo kayo ng tao o kayo na naging insensitive at patuloy sa pag-uusap ng malakas? sino ha?

okay lang sana kung once lang kau nag-ingay e pero halos gabi-gabi ata ganyan kayo..me mga tao din namang busy at kelangan magconcentrate sa pag-aaral.. dapat sana alam nyo na nkakaistorbo ung pag-iingay nyo. di na dapat sinasabi un e, the thing na plywood lang ang pagitan ng rooms natin dapat alam nyo na talagang maririnig kau sa kabilang kwarto.

sige, i take the fault kasi ako ung unang nagblog about the issue. ang i know kau ang me upperhand dito kasi naman alam ko mas madami ang papabor sa inyo.. but let me tell you this, PUTANG INA! DI KO KAYO UURUNGAN! cge, gawin nyo ang gusto nyo at sabihin nyo ang gusto nyo. magsasawa lang din naman kau..

di na ako magcocomment ulit sa issue for now, i will let you have the time of your lives.. enjoy the privilege of telling everyone your side of the story. wag lang tlga kayong sumobra, kasi pag napuno ako.. HUMANDA KAYO! ANG LAKAS NG LOOB NYONG MAGSALITA NG GANYAN E KAYO NAMAN ANG DAPAT MAHIYA SA PAG-IINGAY NA GINAGAWA NYO GABI-GABI!

bsta, bahala na kau.. magpakasaya kau sa mga buhay nyo!

on being a bio student

2008-05-22T10:35:00.000-07:00

bakit nga bah ako naging bio student? hmmm.. bsta, un ang first choice ko sa UPCAT at ngqualify ako. good for me kc quota course ang bio, which means na limited lang ang pwedeng matanggap sa course. hehe. pero gusto ko tlga magaccountancy at first, then pursue law after. bongga sana db? CPA lawyer ako. hehe. pero too bad di pwede. rule kasi sa pisay na dapat science-related ang kukuning course sa college. so obviously, di ako pwede magaccountancy. huhu. anyway, no regrets. hapi naman na ako sa course ko ngaun. at least in line pa rin sa interests ko. hehe

i never expected biology to be easy, but i never expected that it would be this hard! waah! haggard tlga. huhu. well, me kahirapan naman tlga lahat ng courses in one way or another. pero exciting din naman ang bio, daming nalalaman anout the things around you. hehe. nageenjoy tlaga ako sa pagmemorize ng mga scientific names tapos mas nakakaaliw yung habang nglalakad ka, alam mo yung lahat ng scientific names ng mga plants na nasa tabi-tabi. nice noh? hehe. tapos kyut din makakita ng iba't-ibang klase ng hayop. tapos kyut din halungkatin ang katawan ng palaka at pusa. haha! alala ko tuloy sa bio 11, ung part ng circulatory system ng palaka pinag-aaralan namin. blood tracing kc e, tapos we should be familiar with the veins and arteries. so obviusly, dapat buhay ang frog para makita namin how it all works. single pith lang ginawa namin para sure na okei ang frog. good luck naman sa palaka ko, ang lakas pa din. kumakawala sa pins! grr! kaya ayun, kahit bukas na sya and everything e kelangang ihampas sya sa sink at nang tumino. hehe. kyut db? exciting din ung tadpole na hinati into 80+ parts at nilagay sa slide. nakaka-enhance ng spatial abilities. dapat magaling ka maimagine kung ano itsura ng tadpole, so parang nasa loob ka ng tadpole tapos tinitignan mo ang internal structures nya from head-to-tail. kyut db? hehe. too bad di sya ganun kasaya pag exam. huhu.

moving on, mahirap ang bio in the sense na marami kang dapat gawin. dapat talaga maging masipag, lalo na sa lab. good luck naman, ngkakantahan lang ata kami nila ryan at crozy sa lab instead na mgtrabaho. haha! pero enjoy din. :D isa pa na ngpapahirap sa amin ay ang mga madudugong exam ng mga professors namin. promise! MADUGO tlaga! lalo na pag c ma'am roderos, shet! hirap ng exams nya. huhu.

pero i'm looking forward tlaga sa future bio subjects k. mukhang mas interesting na. i can't wait for microbio, it's really one of my favorite fields. hehe. pero sabi nila bihira lang daw pumapasa dun.. haay.. come what may nlng. bsta, dapat di mawalan ng interest at motivation para go lng ng go ^_^

i know kaya ko to, kaya namin to. i chose the harder route to med school (no offense ha) so panindigan ko na to. sana lang talaga kayanin ko..huhu

update!

2008-05-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

i wonder if anyone gives a damn about my life, and bothers to read my entries..hmm.. in case there's someone out there, here's the latest..

i'm back home for summer! what could be better news than that? haha! feels really good to be home, its the best place in the world! unlimited internet, lots of food, and most of all, i'm with my family. ^_^ i'm really having a good time here, how i wish i get to go home everyday or during weekends.. T_T it's really hard to be away from home you see, being far from the people you love and the life you're used to. mahirap din mgbudget ng pera! haay.. wala lang.. how i wish UP Diliman is in Davao! haha!

umm.. what else? i got 16 units sa CRS! pero kulang pa ako ng GE at PE. dapat mkkuha ako kc june 3 pa balik ko, malamang ubos na nag slots db by the time ngstart ako mgenrol? huhu.. bsta, kaya ko to! tama pala, blocked na kami sa Bio.. blocked ha as in me blocks na kami. as much as i hate it, we have no control over our schedule.. T_T pero looking on the brighter side, assured na kami ng slots sa majors namin. hehe.. too bad di ko kblock c crush.. huhu. and andun ako sa block ng mga matatalino at hardworking! o di ba? i'm so out of place! wala na akong kasamang babagsak sa mga exams at magfinals! huhu.. huhu.. huhu.. bsta, i know i can do this! konting tiis nlng, matatapos na din ako sa college.. if everyting turns out the wat they should be, hopefully, i'm off to med school in 2-3 years :D

wala lang, i just miss blogging.. i as reading my other entries in my other blogs.. kkamis lang tlaga.. huhu. if you're interested, you can visit my multiply blog, just

click here , or if you're reading this entry in my multiply blog,

click here to go to my original blog. ^_^

i think that's all for now, my eyes are really teary because of my allergic rhinitis.. huhu. i really hate dust, makes me really sick! T_T i can't take my anti-histmaine, it would make me very sleepy and i don't want to sleep yet.. maya nlng ako iinom pag matutulog na ako.. hehe. cge, bbye! ^_^

about my bloggie

2007-10-21T23:15:00.001-07:00

im currently working on my blog's skin..so under construction pa to.. huhu.

weird weird weird!

2007-07-17T21:13:00.000-07:00

the past two weeks have been the busiest 2 weeks of my life! waah! kaw bah naman tambakan ng sunod2 na exams, sangkatutak na papers ang kung anu anong requirements..shet! buti nlng tlga di ako ngbreakdown. huhu. and so far naaccomplish ko naman ang lahat ng dapat gawin..haay. un nga lang kulang tlga ako sa tulog at bangag na ako pag pumapasok ng klase. sensya na sa mga prof na natutulugan ko lalo si sir bautista (math 54) and mam ungson (bio 11). well, tlgang bangag ako pag math kc 7am un..waaah! tapos minsan information overload pa. huhu. ung ke mam ungson naman..hmm..kahit cguro 12 hours pa ung tulog ko the nyt before e tlgang mkkatulog ako sa klase nya. waah! peace mam ^_^ minsan nga di ko namamalayan na andyan na pala sya sa sarap ng pagkahimbing ko. haha!

well..cguro kc nga bio ang course ko, lumalabas na pagiging weird ko. huhu. imagine nyo naman sa lab di namin tinatawag ang specimens by their common names. scientific names po gamit namin. haha! kaya nman minsan mas alam ko pa scientific name ng isang halaman kesa sa common name nito.haha! nerd na tlaga. minsan nga nkaupo lang ako sa me kiosk sa molave. tinitignan ko ang mga plants na nsa paligid ko and tinitignan ko kung alam ko scientific names nla..waah! musta naman un db? i mean di ko nga alam bkt ganun e, bsta bgla nlng ganun ang gnawa ko. huhu. baka naman before ako grumaduate e alam ko na ang mga scientific name ng lahat ng nkpalibot skn. huhu. di ko maimagine sarili ko..la lang

ngaun pala, bestfriends ko na sila campbell at le may. mga authors ng bio and chem books respectively. ngbbonding din kmi minsan ni leithold pero medyo di ko sya feel. haha! di ko naman kc mgetz kung bkait kelangan ko pa mg math. huhu.aanhin ko ang math kung me ooperahan ako db? la lang..o well, cguro nga me use sya sumday..haay

hmm..so far okei pa nman ako. still sane. haha! actually kahit busy e enjoy pa din. i learn lots of things everyday. la lang..tsaka ngaun medyo ngaaral na ako kung iccompare dati. haha! yan na muna ngaun..ggawa pa ako paper and postlab sa chem. huhu. tpos long exam pa namin bukas sa lab. huhu. wish me luck pips! adios! :D

magulong buhay=magulong entry. hehe

2007-05-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

dunno how to start this entry. bsta gusto ko lang mgsulat ng kahit ano,nsa momentum ako ngaun e. pero sa sobrang dami ng gusto kong isulat, di ko alam san mgccmula. haha! :D

ang hirap nga nman tlga mgbigay ng advice noh? di mo alam kung tama bah ung iaadvice mo, bka naman kc masama mging resulta naman. kc nman iba-iba tlga mga tao, kahit na nga cguro ung mga pnkapredictable na tao ay di pa rin tlga ntn mbbsa kung anong nilalaman ng utak nya. ul never know db kung ano ung tlagang gusto nya sa buhay?

san ba natin binabatay ung mga advice na bnibigay ntn? experiences nman db? kumbaga, experience is d best teacher nga daw kaya nman ung mga nttunan ntn sa mga pnagdaanan natin e sinusubukan din ntn isahre sa ibang tao when we think they need it. pero panu nman kung di pareho ung ngng resulta ng gnawa mo nung ang kaibigan mo na ung gumawa nun? konsensya din ntn un db? haayy..hirap nga nman tlga.

on the other hand, mhirap din nman magdecide kung ssundin mo bah advice ng kaibigan mo db? syempre we trust our friends pero nandun pa dn ung fear na panu kung di mganda ung kinalabasan? e di lalong ggulo buhay mo pag ganun? we tell our friends about our problems pero alam mismo ntn sa sarili ntn na di ntn maexplain ang tlagang nangyayari. no matter how hard we try, me ibang details tlga na nkkalimutan o pilit na tinatago. bka ung mga bagay na un pa ang mkaapekto sa mggng resulta ng advice na binigay ng friend mo.

minsan pa e ung mga taong akala ntn na mpagkkatiwalaan ntn, ung mga tipong mkkinig pag me problema ka e cla pa ung ttalikod sau. ung iba, they pretend that they are listening but they really don't care about you and your helluvah life. sabi ko nga knina, di nman tlga ntn mbbsa utak ng mga tao. wla akong gustong ptamaan dito, gusto ko lang isulat ung naiisip ko. i mean general observations to a kaya wla nman sanang violent reactions. hehe

hmmm. ang gulo na bah ng mga sinasabi ko? bsta ang point ko lang is tau lang nman tlaga cguro nkkaintindi sa mga sarili ntn. cguro we need other people to help us through the process of discovering ourselves pero parang guide lang cla. ikaw pa din ggawa ng lahat. no one can understand u better than urself, un lang ung point. pinahaba ko pa noh? hehe

another thing.

me ibang tao lang tlga sa mundo na di pa nkkita mga sarili nila. kumbaga, hinahanap pa daw nila sarili nila kaya nman humihingi cla ng space and tym. kahit anong suyo gawin mo sa kanila e wala tlgang epekto. binigay mo na lahat, pati pride mo below sea level na e ala pa din epekto. me kilala akong mga tao na ganito ang pnagdadaanan ngaun and it pains me to see them like that. close frends ko cla and di ko kaya na tumunganga lang at panoorin ang isang mgandang samahan na mwala nlng ng basta basta.

para dun sa taong hinahanap pa ang sarili nya: mahal ka ng taong below sea level na ang pride. alam kong alam mo un, ang problema e naapreciate mo bah mga gnagawa nya para sau? bakit ganun gnagwa mo sa knya? ang akin lng nman e pagusapan nyo ng maaus mga bagay-bagay,di ung bgla nlng nya mlalamang me ksama ka na palang iba. ganun bah ang nghhanap ng sarili? don't miss the little things he has done for you. appreciate them and see the effort behind those things. he has changed a lot when you two got together, i know you also see that. what more can a man offer to someone he luvs but putting aside everyhting that he is and be a better person for that one girl he loves so much?

para nman dun sa lalakeng below sea level na ang pride: TAMA NA! i think uv done ur part and uv tried ur best to save ur relationship. i think its her tym to do her part. sabi mo ayaw mo tigilan ang pagsuyo kc takot kang bka tuluyan na syang lumayo? haller? e kung ganun nga mangyari, move on! kung di nya nkkita mga gnagawa mo e di sya worthy ng mga bagay na un. sabi mo kc maganda sya at mdali syang mkkhanap ng iba, gwapo ka din nman db? kung bothered ka kc umaaligid mga ex nya at lagi sya sinusuyo, be diffrent from ol those guys! lalaki lang ulo nya pag ganun din gnawa mo. let her learn her lesson this tym. its not that im judging her, frend ko din sya. bsta, alam kong ubos na pride mo. wag naman ganun.leave sumthing for urself. wag kang mgself pity okeis? bsta, kahit anong mangyari nandito lang kmi ni ga kung kelangan mo ng kaibigan :D andito nman kmi para sa inyong dlawa, handa kaming dumamay sa kung anumang sakit na nararamdaman nyo ngaun. at di lang kmi ang handang tumulong, alam kong mdami pa ang concerned.

para nman ke ga: masaya ako na kahit mdami din taung pinagdadaanan ngaun e di pa tau umabot sa point na parang hopeless na taung dlawa. bsta, blessed lang ako to have you ga. alang bbitiw a? kaya ntn to :D hehe

so ayun..i guess un lang nman gusto ko isulat e. sensya na mgulo, bsta type ko lang gusto ko sabihin. sobrang rando lang ng entry na to. cge, til my next update! hehe ^_^

past! past! past!

2007-05-08T07:14:00.000-07:00

hmmm..may 5th wasn't really my idea of celebrating 7 months of seemingly eternal bliss. things were very complicated that day, one fight after another and my love story almost had a not-so-happy ending. i don't why we fight often these past few days, i'm not used to it. sometimes i just want to back to UP coz i think if we're together things won't be like this but i know that would be impossible right now.

they say that distance makes the heart grow fonder? how? through fights and petty quarrels? well, i just don't like how distance "makes" the heart grow fonder! i know that couples have to go through this kind of stuff but i'm still adjusting to it, i think we both are. i just hope both of us can endure who knows whatever may may come our way.

the thing that really bothers me is the reason why we fought. both of us are bothered with the other person's past. i admit that i'm still not convinced that he isn't over with his past and i think that he's not convinced that i am over with my past. both of us have uncertainties and i just don't like it. i'm insecure of my boyfriend's past and i'm hating it. he said that i should trust him but i'm not convinced that everything's over between him and her.. argh! but i guess i should learn to trust him. i don't want to live the rest of my life in doubt and feeling obscure. i'm trying my best not to doubt him. love comes with trust and i'm gonna live by that quote from now on.

we've managed to settle things at the end of the day and somehow had a happy 7th "fifth day of the month". though we're not together im glad we resolved the conflict. we didn't start the day right but im glad we ended it right. i hope the things we've said and realized will serve as a lesson for both of us. im still looking forward to a future with him and i know that entails a lot of pains and sacrifices. i know that i can pass through all of them..with him by my side. :D

new stuff

2007-04-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

new skin! hehe :D
i love my new skin.hmm.i think its better than the old one.kahit walang faeries or butterflies okei lang, ngustuhan ko kc ung message ng skin.hehe.take flight pips! :D

got some new realizations..

first: i realized that love isn't measured by how much time you spend with your boyfriend or how many days you get to see him in a week.what matters is what you really feel inside and the things both of you do to at least make up for those absences.

second: past is definitely past! what and who you have today are the things that matter.past experiences are just there to give you reminders of what you should and should not do.don't dwell too much on your past or other people's past coz it won't do you any good.the worst enemy of present happiness is past happiness too well-remembered. :D

third: no matter how tough things are, believe that you can conquer them all.begin with the end in mind.hehe.know what you want and do any possible way to achieve it.live your dreams pipol! :D

fourth: savor every moment with your special someone coz you'll never know if it will be your last chance to be with that person. don't be afraid to show them what you feel and tell them how much they mean to you.trust the people you love for they will never hurt you.its a matter of trusting each other at the same time making sure you don't break the trust given to you by that person.

fifth: don't think too much coz it won't really help you.don't generate problems out of nowhere.hehe.

sixth: don't be too idealistic.don't expect someone to be what you want them to be,accept them for who they are.

seventh: when you love a person,you won't hurt them.mean the things you say to that person.don't be afraid to make sacrifices especially if its for the one you love. :D

eighth: when you love, love as if tomorrow's never gonna come but always leave something for yourself.

ninth: learn to accept your mistakes and learn from them.never let pride get in the way coz most of the time,its the root of quarrels.learn to say sorry and when you say sorry,always mean it.

tenth: always trust God coz He'll never gonna leave you.everything happens for a reason and whatever reason God has when he gave you sufferings,it sure is for your own sake.be strong and always make God the center of your life :D

not my typical entry huh? its not a sudden change of heart.i've always believed in those things but never really put them into practice.hehe.

back home!

2007-04-09T10:23:00.000-07:00

im finally back home, actually last saturday pa ako nkabalik pero ngaun lang ako ngkamomentum magsulat dito.hehe :D as said, nung saturday, april 7, pa ako bumalik. my exams were finished march 28 pa kaya i had lots of free time..waho0! hehe.i enjoyed my last days sa dorm, i bonded with my friends and umakyat kami sa rooftop! ^_^ hehe.it was nice seeing the things around me in a new point of view (literally and figuratively.hehe). hanggang april 5 lang ang kalay which means i had to find a place to stay hanggang april 7 and someone na pwde ako ihatid sa airport on the day of my flyt..and i just found the right place.where? kanila ga! ^_^ why? other from the things mentioned, there were other things that were very memorable to me.

first,just so you know..la pong milagro na nangyari dun.civilized kami ni ga and we knbow our limits so don't make a big fuzz out of my stay there okeis? mabuti na ung klaro kesa naman kung anu-ano isipin nyo db? hehe..just read along :D

we left on april 1, sunday yun.sinundo kami ni paulo (kapatid ni ga) pati ng mommy nya.i was really nervous that time..i didn't know how to act in front of them..waah! as in kakakaba tlga T_T but things went fine,there were VERY nice to me.hehe

it was jeo's bday (pinsan ni ga) nung day na un kaya nung dumating kami kainan agad! haha! what a perfect way to start db? hehe syempre nahihiya pa ako kaya nagtimpi muna ako, konti lang muna kinain ko.hehe.i met the whole family na, masaya cla kasama and kausap.nkasundo ko naman ata lahat.hehe.pati ung 3 pinsan ni na cla jeo,kyle and ian kalaro ko.hehe. la lang :D really makes me happy. ang sarap ng food dun, and di ka magugutom.hehe. lagi kc may food.and halos lahat may gulay pero di pa rin successful c ga sa mission nya na pakainin ako ng gulay! hahaha! peace ga! :D

it was holy week kaya madami ding mga activities dun.nagprusisyon din kami.their holy week is different from our holy week here in davao.their's was more traditonal.i like it more coz you can realy feel the essence of the event.la lang.they really give imporatance to it. nagprusisyon kmi pati first tym ko ngprusisyon ng 4am na nkayapak pa..waAh! 4kms pa ung nilakad namin.maskit tlaga xa sa paa pero masayang experience din un.hehe

pumunta din kami sa skul ni ga nung high school. nakilala ko ung mga teacher nya dati pati nkita ko ung mga ex nya.hehe.la na akong masabi, nasabi ko na ata lahat kay ga and npagusapan na namin mga bagay2. ^_^

tama nga pala, na-meet ko din ang lola ni ga na 93 years old na.c lola bining :D hanga ako sa kanya, despite her age, malakas pa rin sya.la lang.i hope i had time to bond more with her kaya lang sandali lang din ako ngstay dun..huhu

nung pauwi na ako, hinatid ako ni ga,paulo at mommy. nkkhiya na tlga msyado..waah! as in sobrang thankful ako sa family ni ga for treating me very well.salamat tlga! ^_^ hope i can bond with them more...hehe.mixed emotions ako nung umuwi na ako.masaya kc mkikita ko na family ko.na-miss ko din cla kaya excited tlga ako mkita cla.sad din kc di ko mkikita c ga for 2 months.matagal din un.teary eyed nga ako nung nasa plane na ako dahil dun..waah! pero i know kaya namin to! distance makes the heart grow fonder..db ga? :D

hapi ako right now coz everything seems to be in their right places.though 4 ako sa math, pumayag naman prof ko na sa june na ako magremovals kaya sobrang thankful na din ako.sana lang mpasa ko ung removals para nde msyadong heavy ang load ko next year..waah! wish me luck pips kc kelangan ko tlaga ng maraming luck sa hirap ng prof ko...waahh! nywei, hapi tlga ako ngaun.everything seems fine, hapi naman ung mga tao sa paligid ko and kahit may mga problems alam ko kaya ko lahat lampasan un coz i have my family,friends,c ga at lahat ng mga mahal ko ^_^ haha! mdrama tong entry na to a? la lang...cge pips..i'll update as soon as i can..gud nyt! ^_^

one year and the memories are still alive

2007-03-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

its amazing how time flies so fast..it was just like yesterday when we had our high school graduation-- the familiar faces that have been a very important part of my life, happy faces that were excited to step into another part of their lives, sad faces that wouldn't have wanted to leave the people they have learned to love..

1 year na pala since grad namin, it only dawned on me when kams texted illumina..i miss my high school friends, i miss the bonding and all. i miss pisay T_T i love UP but pisay has something that UP can never replace. pisay had the memories that i will never forget. it was in pisay that i met the loveliest people i've ever known..

we've been living our separate lives for a year now and i think everyone is happy with where they are right now. im glad that eventhough i don't see those familiar faces often,they still greet me everytime we bump into each other.

so much for the reminiscing--hehe ^_^ basta, keep the light bright illumina! :D don't leave dark corners in your life. remember nyo lang.. "darkness will fade in the presence of ILLUMINA"

about the pda issue

2007-03-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

i know people had their eyes on our group and i know what we do is great issue to them but i didn't expect that they would come out in a very HARSH way...i'm not exaggerating it,it was very HARSH! pinagtulungan nila kmi, grabe! we can't even defend ourselves, its hard to defend your side when you're already pre-judged and the people you're dealing with are too narrow-minded to understand.

it would be very hypocritical if i would save myself from their accusations, yes im guilty of PDA but when it turned out that their concern was the noise (not the pda) i wanted to kill those people who bombarded us with their say on the issue! after what they did, i just can't forgive some of them.i can't just keep quiet about the issue coz they really crossed the line.

maybe we'll just tone down a bit to give those people what they want. but i think they have to open their minds too and accept the fact that PDA exists in this world especially that we're in college now and we're UP that supposed to be the place for open minded people. oh well, i think i've said enuf..those kind of people don't deserve much space in my blog. :D

except for that pda issue, my life is fine. im very much happy with the people i have right now, much happier than before. at least i dont have to endure ill-tempered people everyday of my life. haha! i hope this wont create too much fuzz.hehe

i just like to post some pics here..la lang :D

hmmm.....

pasalubong fest :D

open haus naman

kalay lobby

open haus ulit :D

kim at java (mga pakyut! haha!)

dexter bayot!

update! update!

2007-02-23T23:02:00.000-08:00

living in the dorm wasn't a hell like this until a guard named "Ate Edith" came into my life...

haha! la lang. im just pissed off! ginawan kami ng report ng pesteng guard na un kagabi kc daw ngstay pa kmi sa lobby kahit beyond curfew na. okei lang nman, aminado naman ako sa violation. kaya lang naman ako ngretaliate kc ang bias nya. di lang naman kami ang tao dun, may iba pa na andun and maingay pa cla samantalang kami nkaupo lang while waiting for our food. ang bias nya tlaga! di nya pinupuna ung mga kclose nya.halos lahat ng tao ganun ang sabi.sana naman maging fair sya sa lahat. pero there's no turning back na, inaway ko na sya kagabi kaya paninindigan ko na to. di ko sya uurungan! haha! lalabas na ata pgka-maldita ko a, matagal-tagal din ako di naging ganito kamaldita, ang swerte naman ni ate edith, sya pa ata ang una mkkexperience ng aking maldita powers XD

anyway, life's good in general. malapit na mgsummer and im looking forward to having a great time this vacation. kahit di man ako mkkauwi, i'll try tomake the most out of my vacation.hehe.miss ko na family ko, as in T_T haayy..gusto ko man umuwi mukhang di pwde..tsk2. okei lang.kelangan din mgsacrifice minsan.cge, til here nlng muna. bye pips!^_^

hello 2007!

2007-01-01T07:44:00.000-08:00

new year..new template..new life??? (again?!)

hmm..we've all said goodbye to 2006 hours ago.i hope everyone had a good time with their families.hehe ^_^ well..i think this was the best new year i had so far.we had lots of food!!! haha! but its not only that, mas happy kami ngaun ng family ko.when we were eating our noche buena,it seemed that we had no problems at all.i'm feel happy to be blessed with such a wonderful family that i and forever will love ^_^

2006 had been a great year for me.God had blessed me this year and i will always be grateful to Him.here are some of the things that happened the past year that i'm that i'm really thankful for:

--i graduated from Pisay. the 3 years i spent there wasn't easy at all.i had to go through lots of things but i know Pisay brought out the best in me.i may not have given my best in my acads but i surely learned a lot during my stay there.and pisay had given me the best memories that will always make me smile whenever i look back on my high school days.

--i passed UPCAT! haha! and now i'm studying in the country's premiere state university ^_^ this was really a dream come true.i won't waste this chance opportunity coz not all people are lucky enough to study in UP.i may not have done my best during high school and my first sem in UP but i'm starting to realize things that make me want to achieve more. i know i can do better..much much much better than what i'm doing ryt now.

--my family is happy! i never forget to include my family and all the people i love in my prayers.i'm just happy that God had blessed me with wonderful people that i know will always be there for me and who love me ^_^

--of course, i can't end this part without thanking God for giving me one of the most important persons in my life right now...c ga ^_^ when i came to UP, it never occured to me that i would have this kind of relationship with anyone.i guess i was still scared to go into a new relationship after what happened to my last.haaayy.but things are different now, i don't regret anything. :D i don't care what other people has to say bout this coz i know we're doing nothing bad.para kay ga,sana mabasa mo to. ^_^ salamat sa lahat2. alam mo na un kasi lagi ko nman sinasabi db?hehe.basta, whatever things that may come our way...let's face them together,okeis? and always remember that i <3 u ^_^

i'm looking forward to a great year this 2007, even better than 2006. i don't really have plans for this year, all i know is that i'm a better person now and with that, i can handle things better compared last year.i know i will do better this time around.hehe ^_^

hmm..i might not go home this summer.i'm planning to take summer classes there in UP. i will surely miss my family T_T but the good thing is i can spend more time with ga.haha! anyway...i wish everyone a wonderful year ahead! god bless! ^_^

batch party blues

2006-12-23T10:29:00.000-08:00

can't sleep,somethings's bothering me..shet!

anything that has something to do with that person seems temporary. i know i shouldn't think bout this too much coz i know this day and everything that happened today is just like the things that happened in the past, they're all temporary.

and i have better things to think about.i still haven't started with my assignments.i have to start working on them. i want to start 2007 right, i don't want to cram this time.haha! cge..buhbye! ^_^

2006-12-20T20:54:00.000-08:00

i deleted my other entry, i decided not to make a big fuzz bout it instead. and i think its not a good start after a long period that i haven't written here. on a lighter mood, i want to write about things that happened lately...

1st,the 30th Oblation Run.haha! i was right at the front of the crowd and i witnessed everything.pero bitin,konti lang yung tumakbo..i expected more,pramis! T_T haayy..pero its the eperience that counts.my stay in UP won't be complete if i haven't watched the oblation run at least once..hehe

first time ko din sumali sa rally..wahoo! i saw my dormmates joining the rally so we also decided to join.hehe.it was fun.we were trying to avoid cameras coz our parents might kill us.hehe..basta,it was really fun.hmm..and i'm beginning to be aware of the issues in the campus...

the lantern parade was cancelled but some colleges still pursued the parade. but still, i wasn't able to see any lantern coz we arrived late (naadik pa kc ako sa sims 2 T_T) i guess i still have to wait for another year para makakita ng lantern parade..haay

kinagabihan naglakad2 kami around the acad oval.i was with ga,benex,pepot,karen and java.ga bought bracelets para sa aming dalawa.hehe. below poverty line kc kaming dalawa kaya yun nlng muna gift namin sa isa't isa..pati din pala ung mga cards. ^_^ la lang..

after nun tambay lang kami sa may sunken..hehe.quality time muna before ako uwi davao. we planned to attend the first simbang gabi,still the six of us and some other pips. but unfortunately,di nagising c ga.e ngpagising sa kanya mga tga 3g kaya ayun..di din nggcng cla java and benex T_T nung second day ng simbang gabi,tambay kami sa harap ng BA para di makatulog.ngpakaadik ako sa sims 2 kaya ayun..di nnman ntuloy.hihi

before i forget! pinakilala nga pala ako ni ga sa friends nya nung hs ^_^ la lang.i'm just glad to meet them.they're nice and super easy to get along with.hehe

nung december 14 nga pala,christmas party sa dorm.naabutan kami ng madaling araw dun..champion ang team namin sa sportsfest! haha! go wads up ba!!! ang saya din kc nkkita kami ng falling stars.i think i saw 4 ^_^ hehe..la lang.tapos december 15 bday ni ga,bnigyan ko xa ng card (un lang kaya ko kc la ako pera T_T). i was surprised nung bnigyan din nya ako ng card.haha! la lang..funny lang ^_^

dunno if i missed other things pa,kung meron man next tym nlng yun.hehe. cge..buhbye! ^_^

official statement (hehe) ^_^

2006-10-26T09:36:00.000-07:00

i'm really happy right now and i'm just in the best mood to write this entry ^_^ i know that a lot of people already know about the latest scoop on my lovelife right now and i know that many people are waiting for me to finally admit what's really my status with this guy.i hope this entry will somehow answer those questions...

yupz..KAMI NA. ^_^ and i am not ashamed to say na kami na..medyo matagal na rin kami but we decided to keep it for sometime because of some reasons which aren't for the public to know or perhaps some people know those reasons..cguro sasabihin ng iba na sobrang bilis ng mga pangyayari, aminado naman kami nun..but we just can't do anything about it.and i think people don't have the right to question my feelings for him.it's I who can tell what i really feel..if i say i'm in love,then that's it..there's no question about it.^_^ i think i'm starting to sound a bit maldita here..sorry.hehe

i'm just happy that we need not to hide anything any longer..at least we can be what we really are and be happy. i really aprreciate my friends for understanding and giving their sincere advice on this one.thank you talaga especially kanila becky and anj. MBB! ^_^ i promise not to overlook the important things and never forget my priorities and of course...set my limits..

kay ga naman..thank you for understanding and thanks for being there for me always.thanks sa patience ^_^ i know masaya ka rin.hehe.. at least free na tayo ngaun.like i always say..let's stay happy.excited na ako mkita ka ulit.kitakitz na lang sa nov 5, there are surely a lot of reasons to celebrate.hehe

i'll end this entry with this quote: "We come to love not by finding the perfect person but by learning to love an imperfect person perfectly."

bye! ^_^

batch party!!!

2006-10-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

we just had our batch party yesterday...it was so nice to see ILLUMINA again! haha! ^_^ konti lang yung nkapunta pero sobrang saya pa rin..chikahan galore,picture picture din pati... ANG DAMING FOOD!!! ^_^ salamat jay sa accommodation..hehe. mga 1am na ako nkauwi dito sa bahay..as usual,sasa contingentz nanaman ung last pipol standing..this time ksama cla nerdy and jei. hehe

i really some have catching up to do with my batchmates.there wasn't much change, ganun pa rin naman yung mga pips..maingay,hyper agad pag sinabi mong "Pips, PICTURE!",at kung pagkain ang paguusapan...tatak na ng ILLUMINA ang pagiging busaw. hehe ^_^ i really had a great time talking to my friends..update sa mga buhay2 apti labasan ng mga hinanakit sa acads! T_T

haayy..i really missed my friends, sana batch party everyday..hehe ^_^ la lang..na-miss ko lang tlaga ung kakulitan ng mga pips and cguro...miss ko na ung "ako" pag ILLUMINA ang kasama ko...LOVE YOU FRIENDS!!! ^_^

PS: to see a video of our kalokohan click here

enjoy! hehe ^_^

home sweet home

2006-10-21T11:12:00.000-07:00

its 2:30 am and i'm still in front of the pc not because i still have to cram for a project or watever,i'm here because sembreak's already here and IM BACK HOME!!! haha! i guess i'll be back to my old routine (that i'll never get tired of) for the next two weeks.hehe.c'mon! after the 4 excruciating months, i BADLY need a break...

well..its really nice to be back home.i just arrived a few hours ago.hehe. my mom and dahly picked me up in the airport and God knows how hapi i was when i saw them...haayy..i really miss my family very much.we dropped by my lola's house before goinh home to pick up something..i was really happy when my cousins rushed to greet me.hehe.i was also happy to see my lola (bday nya nga pala bukas...wala lang.hehe) when we finally got home,the twins were already asleep..sayang..excited pa naman sana ako na mkita sila ulit.c papa din tulog na when i got home. though i wasn't able to greet everyone, i'm still hapi that i'm finally back home ^_^

i've got loads to do this break but this time i'm gonna do things i love doing.hehe. batch party namin sa 25, im soooo excited! i'm dying to see ILLUMINA again. we've got some catching up to do.i'm sure endless chikahan nnman to..haha! just as i want it ^_^ dami din cguro mga outings. sabi ni jay kanina na baka punta daw kami paradise sa monday or tuesday..yehey! i really miss the place T_T hmm..wat else? i guess i'll be meeting my elementary friends one of these days. anu na kaya mga mukha ng mga yun? hehe..miss ko na rin yung mga taong yun.hehe

hmm..im happy that break's finally here but i'm gonna miss someone too (alam mo na kung cno ka) haay..two weeks din kami di magkikita T_T pero okei lang, ang ganda din naman nung day na babalik ako ulit sa UP..ahh basta! alam mo na yun (db ga:D) hehe..

ala na akong masabi...i'd better get some sleep, today's a busy day.. i'll try to include some pics on my next entry. cge, bye pips! ^_^

2006-09-24T03:06:00.000-07:00

i'm really happy right now. ^_^ life's not really perfect, i still have to do something with my acads, finals are coming,got loads of things to do but amidst all these, there's someone who really makes me happy. haay naku..sana lang talaga di to panandalian lang..i appreciate my friends for giving me some advice about what's happening right now but i'm really risking on this one. maybe i'll end up crying like i always do but who knows?..maybe it would be different this time..haay..i hope it would all be worth it in the end..sana lang tlga.. ^_^

2006-09-03T01:55:00.000-07:00

one month to go and i'll be back home!

--haha! one month nlng jud! excited na ako umuwi.but before i get too excited, i know i have to do well in my acads first.my math prof told me that i still have a chance to pass math if i pass my remaining exams.it comforted me a bit coz i thot that i was really hopeless T_T.its always nice to know that there's still hope there somewhere.hehe...may paper nga pala ako sa kas1, at least 5 pages dapat...history ng barangay namin! shucks! asa man daw na nako puniton?! grr..ahh basta! excited man din ako every kas1 kc andun crush ko.haha! wala lang.hehe.biga moments na pud ^_^ palarong pinoy kahapon sa kalai,ang saya! nag-chinese garter ko,pamaol to the highest level ko.hehe.wala lang..makalipay.nisamot man hinuon ko pagka-bisaya na naa ko diri ui.dapat gani tagalog na ko.pero proud bisaya japon.hehe ^_^ (obvious ba na wala koy mayawyaw?) haay lng.gusto lang jud nko mag-update ug blog.hehe.cge, adto sa ko mga pips...mamunit pa ko ug history sa among dearest barangay kung naa man koy mkitan sa dalan. hehe. bye! ^_^

2006-08-11T22:43:00.000-07:00

haven't been here for quite a while.its not that i've been too busy to write here, its just that i wasn't in the mood to write for the past months.well...im a bit busy, college is way too demanding compared to high school.i just can't sit my ass in front of the pc and type my day away.whew! i think i want the boring summer days instead.but i don't really hate "college"--just the part of having to pass my requirements and the things to do with my acads. T_T shucks! the dreaded math 17 is here and i think im failing it.kelangan kong bumawi pero ang hirap kaya ng lessons T_T haay naku..buti nlng pogee yung prof namin.hehe. he looks like brent javier.hihi.im doing just fine with my other subjects,its just math 17 that i have some problems with.grr! mamatay ang math 17!!! hmph!

well..let me tell the fun parts.hehe.i get to bond with many people now.i mean people from different parts of the country.hehe.i thot i will have difficulties befriending them.you know, language barrier.pero di naman pala ganun.in fact,they want to learn bisaya coz they think its cute.hehe.kaya ayun,we get to talk in bisaya and that makes easier on my part.hehe.dami din pogee dito.haha! how happier can i get? ^_^ i think i have a crush in all of my classes except pe.3 lang naman boys namin sa PE and friend material lang sila lahat.tsk2.anyway,i got to go different places here tapos nka-MRT na ako! haha! wala lang.hehe.simple joys nanaman.^_^

i miss davao...i miss my family..i miss home..i miss my friends..haay..homesick nnman ako T_T i really want to go home,hope i can go home this sembreak.sana lang talga..kahit two weeks lang yun,okei na okei na.hehe.good thing i have my friends to make me smile kahit homesick na ako masyado.tenchu frends! ^_^ i'll try to post some pictures here next time para masaya naman.hehe.i changed my template again,i like this one better.the other seems to be too morbid for me. ^_^ and this one fits me more than the other..butterflies @_@ just can't get enuf of em! well..i guess its time to go..i'll try to update again soon and try to post some pics.midterms na next week T_T sabay pa tlaga philo and math ko but im keeping my fingers crossed..lets just hope for the best.hehe.wish me luck! ^_^ bye!

2006-08-07T20:44:00.000-07:00

update coming soon...

try this! ^_^

2006-06-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

Your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

What's Your True Color?

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In your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince

You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.

But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.

What's Your Cinderella Story?

You're an Angel!

Just like the haloed and winged guardians of good, you truly have a heart of gold, sweet Angel. Whenever there's a chance to pitch in, save the day or just make life easier for the people around you, you're the one for the job.

You don't just jump in without planning — you use your angelic head to figure out how to do things right the first time, like only the most dependable goddesses can. Whether brainstorming a new solution to a problem, planning a surprise party for your parents, or lending your friends a wing to cry on, you've got the right instincts, so follow them whenever you can. As natural as it is for you to take care of the people around you, don't forget to treat yourself right, too. The best friendships, and loves, of a lifetime tend to blossom when you become your own guardian angel.

So don't listen to those who say nice girls finish last. People have always seen you as a goddess of thoughtfulness and good intentions, and it hasn't slowed you down a bit. All in all, Angel, you've got it made with your glowing attitude and ability to see from on high. So get out there and change the world!

What's Your Goddess Identity?

You follow your heart when it comes to success

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.

But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

Do You Follow Your Heart or Your Head?

The best match for your personality is

Aquarius

Initially, an Aquarius may catch your attention by showing you their intellectual side and optimistic outlook. But as you get to know them better, you're likely to be even more drawn to an Aquarian's idealistic resolve and focus on making positive change. People born under this sign are frequently capable of seeing both sides in any dispute. This can make them quite talented when it comes to finding creative solutions in your relationship. Your Aquarius may be a bit headstrong at moments, but they'll also tend to look for the bright side in times of trouble. Overall, Aquarians are solid, unwavering partners and complex people. So, it may take you a little extra time to get to know your Aquarian match, but it's apt to be well worth the wait.

Your Crush is the Class President

Hello, First Lady. A smart and motivated gal like you should set your sights high when it comes to your crush. Forget the slackers or burnouts. You should go for a guy who's got brains, ambition, and people skills (good looks wouldn't hurt either). Only an achiever and well-liked beau will be able to keep up with a first-class lass like you.

A guy who's heading up the student council, spearheading a car-wash fundraiser, and winning everyone over with his charisma and charm is the right candidate for you. He's the responsible type who'll make Mom and Dad proud. And you'll feel proud when your next stop is the campaign trail or The White House!

***try nyo,ang saya! hehe ^_^

2006-05-30T10:28:00.000-07:00

thanks to my boring summer days,i get to ponder more on things lately.i've realized how much i have been missing just beacause i got too crazy over some stuff (and people). ugh! i just hate myself sometimes.i tend to say and do lots of things that i regret sooner or later.well..i just happened to drop by my other blog and a "concerned citizen" posted a comment that brought me back to my senses.i've been soo into someone for the longest time and i said something like waiting for him 'til im 28 blah.blah.blah. why should i wait for someone that i know will never come? i've done lots of crazy stuff,said lots of shitty words and i guess its time to regain my self-worth. (do i sound a bit bitter here?well..sorry :D)

i don't mean to be bitter,its just that i want to completely let go of my past heartaches.how come i never knew i was just holding on to false hopes? hmm...now that i'm heading off to college,i want to start anew.i don't want to worry myself about stuff that could be set aside first.i know i have far better things to think and worry about than my oh-so-colorful-lovelife (as what i usually call it).

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some random stuff

--i just had my tooth taken out yesterday ^_^ i'm quite reliefed for this one.i've been dying to have it taken off and finally, i got rid of it! hehe ^_^

--i miss my friends..becky,kams, mark...3 of the 4 people that played such a big role in my life :D

--i miss my bestfriend.. howie.i just miss talking to him everyday.i miss annoying him.hehe. tsktsk.. i just miss him :(

--may bagong dear doctor love.hehe.intrigued na ako masyado.

--i'm leaving on the 8th.that would be next week.i'm leaving with migs.

--my summer's soo boring

--i want to study again.i miss copying notes T_T i want to read again! haha!

--i still don't want to leave.i don't think i'm ready to be away from my family for so long. T_T

--the yearbook's finally out.and i guess our efforts paid-off.hehe.hope ILLUMINA likes it ^_^

--our room's bigger now and the PC's just 2 feet away from the bed.hehe.^_^

--i've watched da vinci code..now i'm wondering.was it really paul bettany's butt i've seen?!

--i got the cd's from jason (the compilation thing) and i just miss my batchmates.T_T i miss everyone!

--i finally saw our MTV for Kadi.it was awesome!.hehe. ^_^

--i just had a fight with dahly.i'm super glad i don't have a black eye at this very moment.hehe

--kamille's b-day's getting closer

--today is ruth's b-day! happy bday ruth! :D

--i watched Legally Blonde 1 and 2 today.hehe ^_^

--i guess i've already blabbed enough.hehe. ^_^ cge, goodbye for now! :D

2006-05-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

argh! da vinci code's rated R-18! i felt like the whole world collapsed when i learned bout this.i just can't believe those MTRCB people think so low of the Filipino youth! curse 'em! i waited so long for this movie and now that it's finally here,there's a BIG chance that i won't be able to watch it! T_T i certainly think that people of our age can fully understand the movie and i surely think that people won't become aetheists or some sort just because the book said that Jesus Christ was married to Mary Magdalene and even had a child.Jesus was born human and having a family is just human!

hmm..another thing,many people want to watch the movie but can't because of those stupid MTRCB people.these people would resort to buying pirated copies of the movie,thus promoting piracy! sheesh! grr..i'm just so depressed.and one more thing. if i cant see the the movie,that would mean missing paul bettany!!! T_T sorry for the drama,but this whole thing's just driving me nuts. (tears..tears..tears..)

huwaah! paul bettany <3>

2006-05-14T21:07:00.000-07:00

here's a poem by Edgar Allan Poe...hehe.i just love this poem,dunno why ^_^

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let the avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has thrown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream

I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand-

How few! Yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! Can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! Can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream?

...ain't it nice? :D (hmm..just don't mind the pic..hehe^_^)

im back!

2006-04-26T06:58:00.000-07:00

im back! after 48 years,i'm finally back! haha.nothing much to blab right now but i just want to write few things here.

hmm..where should i start? last april 18, we went to paradise.it was a belated birthday celebration for luis.we definitely had fun there.hehe ^_^ i'm a bit tanned but i guess its okei.that night, we went to jason's house,this time for an advanced birthday celebration.jay's birthday is on the 19th,the day after but ren and low are leaving for manila the next day so he decided to have the party on the 18th.most people who went to paradise also went to jay's house.hehe.but the sasa contigentz were the last people to go home.(alangan!^_^).

next...howie's back from taiwan.well,its nice to have him back here but i guess taiwan did change my bestfriend a lot...i mean A LOT! hmm..i wont go into the details anymore,im just glad that he's finally here and we get to talk again.hehe

i think that's all for now...summer's getting a bit boring..haay naku.cge, ciao! ^_^

vanity strikes again!

2006-04-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

anong nangyari sa pic nato?...well, ganda pa rin! ^_^

echus!

DAHLY: where is the loovvee?!

bleh!

smile! (haha!:D)

pa-kyut gyud ^_^

tweetums?...hehe

ang bigaon...bow!

hmmm..i just got my hair cut today and so did dahly.hehe.my hair's shorter now and i guess its nicer than before.i just want to post some pics here.hehe.^_^

new template...new life ^_^

2006-04-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

haha!

im kinda "starting" a new life...i'm changing for good.not totally but sumthing's definitely gonna change.hmmm..1.) i'm gonna change the way i look at things.i tend to see things in negative ways but now i'll more optimistic and look at life in a rather positive way.^_^ 2.) i'll learn how to control mu mouth.there were things i said that i totally regret.i guess there will always be those words better left unsaid. 3.) i'll take care of myself from now on--i'll be more vain! haha!i'll try to improve my fashion sense.i'll wear different clothes. well...there are limits,okei? 4.) i'll be more private this time.my problems aren't for the public to know.but i'll still confide them to my closest friends (alangan!) ^_^ 5.) hmmm...lastly.i'll take care of my heart from now on.i know the world has lots of things in store for me.

i'm really excited to go to college now...i wonder what will hapen to me there?hmm...come what may,i'm ready for anything ^_^

2006-04-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

summer's finally here.i can feel the heat (ang init kaya!) hmmm..and im starting to miss lots of things already.got nothing to do,i'll just enumerate them.hehe

i miss:

1.ILLUMINA
2.sasa contingentz and stopping by sym's before going home
3.kwek-kwek!
4.becky---my bestfriend (hope to see you soon bex!)
5.howie---my bestfriend(uwi ka na how...sob)
6.mark---bestfriend ko din ^_^
7.wearing pisay uniform
8.seeing him everyday
9.endless chika moments
10.PISAY AND EVERYTHING THAT'S PART OF IT

haay..nostalgia is really one of the most abused words these days..tsktsk

^_^

2006-04-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

i never knew i could be this happy ^_^

2006-03-31T06:07:00.000-08:00

i'm more confused now than before...

shucks! i dont know what to think...
i don't know who to believe...
i don't know what to do...
i don't know what to say...

haayy...my friends are right..i should think it over...
i should ponder on things...
i can't battle my emotions,you see...
i will just have to go with it but still keep myself sane...hehe

haapy birthday howie! ^_^

2006-03-30T08:06:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to my bestfriend! :D thank you sa lahat...thanks for being my bestfriend.hehe.thank you for trusting me and thank you din sa mga experiences.i just wanna tell you that you taught me lots of things..you may not know it but yes..you taught me lllloooootttsss of things!sorry kung gna-away kita most of the time. ^_^..basta..thank you sa lahat2..alam mo na yun.:D stay the same ha kahit college na tayo.ma-miss tlga kita.promise! and 17 ka na,better grow up.hehe.^_^ HAPPY BITHDAY ULIT!!! ^_^

finally

2006-03-29T05:33:00.000-08:00

first of all...i would like to tell you that i feel that there ain't no need for an entry about the intrams and the retreat.^_^late na kasi masyado.hehe.and besides...i've written about it somewhere else.hehe.

and now for the main topic...

finally! its our graduation day! haha! i already have my diploma ^_^ i'm just sooo happy.at least those 3 excruciating years paid off. :D congratz to batch 2k6! fly high ILLUMINA! let's conquer the world.hehe ^_^

and another thing...i've finally made up my mind about something.i'm not dumb anymore..i know college has lots of things in store for me but i should concentrate on my studies first.first things first,right?! ^_^

lastly...i've decided to follow my friends' advice ^_^

musings of a bored mind

2006-03-26T06:21:00.000-08:00

got nothing to do...still feeling lazy to write something bout the intrams ^_^

im just bored...haayy..we've got 3 days till grad...i hope everything will be fine till wednesday..i hope we'll all be happy when we leave pisay..

its really hard for me to accept that i'll be parting ways with my friends...shucks! the drama..haha!well..i'd better go before my cheesy-ness stikes again. :)

2006-03-24T06:05:00.000-08:00

i can't think of any title for this post.this is a useless post anyway.hehe.

hmm...i just want to share this quote that i think would best describe what i really feel right now.

"the heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of"

hmm...find out more bout this on my other blog..that's if you can find it.hehe.^_^

me,myself and i

2006-03-23T06:38:00.000-08:00

hmmm..this is not the entry i promised in my previous entry (the one about the intrams and the retreat..but i'll be working on it this weekend ^_^).oh my! i just hate myself sometimes.why can't i get hold of myself whenever he's near?! why can't i simply act normally? why can't i just be me?

i can't give people reasons why i act so strange when you're near coz i don't even know myself.i tried so hard to act as if nothing's wrong or something but i just can't help it.i really lose my marbles when we're together in public.maybe its because of the teasing.but its really different when its just you and me...really different.haayy..i hope i can turn back time and do the things i know i should've done.but too bad...we can't just press "rewind" and be at that moment where we want to be.

hmmm

2006-03-22T06:23:00.000-08:00

i'll be updating soon.i'm just too tired to type a very long entry now.i've got lots to tell...about our retreat and the intrams.well..i added a new link to someone's blog.check it out ^_^

whatever!

2006-03-15T06:48:00.000-08:00

i'm pissed off--again!!! the same friend i was talking about in my previous entries.you did it again.you've done the same mistake and gave me the same reason why you did it!i'm really pissed this time.i think what i say means nothing to you,my opinions don't count.i guess you'll never change,you really disappointed me this time.sorry if you think i'm over reacting,i just cant help it.you've done this several times already...i just dont know what to do this time.iys good that i wont be seeing you for two days,i think that will help...but as of now,i really really really hate you!grr

2006-03-14T05:56:00.000-08:00

the past days were very tiring for me.we were cramming our cheerdance so we have exert more effort.and my mood is quite affected.in fact,i almost had a fight with a friend but i didn't let things to get worse.we're really soo busy these days and i son't get to see HIM often.we stay at the gym to practice while he stays at the academe doing something i know nothing of.^_^ hehe

well...i guess today was the most tiring day!though we only had our practice during the afternoon ,kapuy pa rin masyado.we practiced our stunts and some new steps today and i fell many times.i even had a bruised knee! huwaah! anyways, i love what i'm doing so i won't complain..pero kapuy lang talaga xa.haha!^_^

i hope we can finish our cheerdance..and i hope we'll win!!!^_^ i hope our efforts would pay off in the end.i know we can do this...i have faith in my batchmates.go illumina! ^_^

haayyy

2006-03-06T05:58:00.001-08:00

bakit di ko matiis friends ko?hmmm...i said in my previous entry that i won't forgive my friend but argh! i ate my words for the hundreth time! (nam,nam..sarap!) i did not totally forgive him but we kinda settled things earlier this day.in fact, we even went to his house to retype our pinoy project.but i'm still hurt bout what he did,i don't trust him now like before.haayy..too bad we only have few more days before grad.i hope we can settle everything before grad...haayy

feeling hurt

2006-03-05T05:23:00.000-08:00

argh! i had this little fight with a dear friend.well he's one of my closest friends but i don't if he knows that i consider him as one.he's one the the few people i can tell my darkest secrets to but now, he really did hurt my feelings.

this happened several times already but i forgave him beacuse he promised he wouldn't do it again.but sadly,he did it again and it really pissed me off!!! he lied to me,after all this time,i thought he trusts me but he doesn't.i cried last night because of this.i don't know, im just so hurt...

he kept on saying sorry and asking what he can do to make it up to me.but i just can't find room for forgiveness right now...maybe in the coming days but certainly not now.beacuse of this, i won't give a damn from now on!he can't expect anything from me, not a single thing.this should give him a lesson.coz if it wouldn't....i don't what else to do...

new layout

2006-03-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

i obviously changed my layout to fit my mood.just bear with me, i'm losing my sanity more often these days.hehe.for the few people who visit me blog,please let me know.leave a tag or something^_^.i guess i'll be writing more entries the next days, i've got all the time.exams are finally over and i have lots of time to blab my sentiments.forgive me for being soooo senti these days.just cant help it.for those people who cant take my cheesy-ness,don't don't bother reading my entries again...no one wants you here! okeis?

anyways...the pictures above were taken during th prom.just wanna share them ^_^

untitled

2006-03-04T01:54:00.000-08:00

*~*~*~*~people ask me why of all people i chose to like you~*~*~*~*

first of all, i did not choose to like you.its the thing called fate.and i can't give then an answer,i don't know why i like you.it just happened that i like you.and i think that i don't need any reason to like somebody.my friends keep on telling me that i deserve someone better.they say that you don't deserve me.kaw daw kasi yung type na walang pakialam...and that makes you very unlikeable.

ugh!sometimes, i just hate myself for liking you.i feel so unnoticed, so unappreciated.but sometimes,you really make my heart skip beats.those were the times when you took my breath away and made me feel like i'm the most loved girl in the world.but you're so inconsistent.sometimes you notice me, sometimes you don't.that's why i have so many doubts...so many questions.and i know i have to find the answers soon or i'll be losing my sanity.

there's this other girl.my friends keep me updated on the two of you.they say you're very sweet when you're together.they say that you already seem to like her.well,she's not the only girl i'm jealous with.i think there are 3 of them.quite insecure huh?at least i keep all this insecurity confined within me.i'd rather keep it than let people know that i'm such a loser for being so insecure.

now that we have only24 days till we graduate,i hope that the next days would be happy for the both of us.even if we would spend those days living our own seprate lives,i hope that those days would be blissful.just by seeing you happy,i know that i've already won you.

i really hope to see you in college.i hope that we would still be friends...though we don't talk that much and we don't really spend time with each other,i'm really gonna miss you...

at last!!!

2006-03-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

wahoo! exams are finally over! we're finally graduating in 28 days...well..that's the sad part and i don't want ot think about it this time.i want to enjoy the coming days with my batchmates coz i will surely miss all of them.huwaah!

upcat results are out and i passed! its surely one good reason to celebrate.hehe!i qualified for DILIMAN and i was able to pass B.S BIO.its a quota course and that makes it more satisfying for me.^_^ almost 50 of us (that's more than half of the batch) qualified for diliman.i guess i'll be seeing the same faces in college.well not all but most of my batchmates are going to diliman.hehe.sadly, my unicorn didn't pass.that made me really sad (i'll write another entry for this one).i think that's all for now, i still have to prepare for the club assessment tomorrow.i'm so nervous! i can't imagine myself talking infront of the MANCOM.shucks! but i know i can do this.ako pa?! hehe.

valentines day hangover

2006-02-17T03:12:00.000-08:00

whoaa! this is the first time someone actually gave me a poem.i'm sooo happy.^_^ here it is:

HIDDEN FLOWER

Early morning dew dampens as the sun rose high
Snow white and silky clouds lovely spread the sky
The earth feels warm breaking the resting charm
Bestowing strength to species in nature's hand
Birds enjoying freedom in the fresh air
Thirsty wildlife delight in crystal water
Bees and butterflies tour the beautiful flowers
Admiring the beauties of wonderful creatures
Beneath the thick plants in this wonderful world
Living with grasses that nature hardly looks
A beautiful flower is blooming its brilliant tone
Never been touched and never been seen before
Oh, how peaceful your life hidden flower
Far from peril and abuse of other creatures
How I wish I could live with you there
Somebody admiring your beauty forever

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i like the poem.^_^ but i don't know...i still have doubts.or am i just being paranoid again?...i think he likes someone else.ugh!i don't know!i just want to be happy...and be with him...but i guess that's already too much to ask

last dance

2006-02-12T01:43:00.000-08:00

i'm sooo happy with my last dance! ^_^ it was not with howard though.he knew i wanted to dance with somebody else.he let me dance with adam,it really touched me.thanks how! ^_^

a few songs before the last song,fiona told me that adam wanted to dance with me for the last song.i don't know what to do,i already said "yes" to howard but i really wanted to dance with adam.when the last song was played,i asked howard if he already danced with fiona.he said that she turned down his invitation.i told him that he should dance with her"may gusto ka isayaw na iba noh?",sabi nya but i said wala.but i think he noticed that i really wanted to dance with adam.i guess i'm not good in hiding things,you know.

"san c adam?ibigay kita sa kanya.alam ko man gusto mo sya i-last dance"...those words really touched me.howard is really a good friend.he found adam standing near the side of the dance floor.he brought me there and gave me to adam.i didn't know how to react at first but its a good thing adam had the initiative to start the conversation.he asked me about the yearbook,etc.i was really happy. ^_^ and i noticed that he smelled soooo good.hehe.la lang. ^_^

well..we actually danced twice.the first was during the middle of the socials.it was fun too.he gave me a rose and said "sorry,di ako nkahanap ng violet na rose".that made me happy again.haha!he took pictures and mark took a video of adam and me dancing.hmmm..i want to have a copy.hehe.

haayyy..i want to freeze time and reamin in that moment when i was dancing with him.i'm just soo happy.but i don't know,there's this omething that still bothers me.its about the other girl linked to him.i'm quite jealous.i guess i liked adam very much already.or perhaps in love with him.shucks! i hope everything will fall in place soon...i still have questions and doubts.i hope i will find answers soon..haayy.i just can't get over my last dance..tsktsk

last song

2006-02-12T01:11:00.000-08:00

here's the last for this year...its kinda funny.on my playlist,kahit kailan comes before you'll be safehere,which is the last song last year.la lang...just wanna share..

SOUTH BORDER lyrics

2006-02-03T07:20:00.000-08:00

next saturday is prom day.everything's fine as of the moment and i hope it would continue till the prom night.i'm working on my gown and our class dance is fine ,the dance is almost complete and so far i'm doing just fine.and i'm very glad my aunt from illinois gave me 1,500!haha!i dont know why,my mom just told me she did.its a big help,really.^_^ maybe its a grad gift or some sort.well, thanks tita! ^_^

hmm..what else can i tell you?

okay...just let me share my "dream" last dance.i dont know why but the last dance is a very big deal for me.i mean,this is my last prom and i want it to be very special.not that last year's prom wasn't.it was special too but i want this prom to be even more special...

i have a last dance for the last song.howard invited me to dance with him.he was my last dance last year and he was special to me then..very special.well, 'nuff of that.this year though,i'm dreaming of this "last dance".i wish the one special to me will invite me to damce with him when the prom's over.he would bring me back to the ballroom,we would be alone there,dancing.and he would be give me a bouquet of white roses and maybe some other romantic stuff.call me mushy but i really wish this would happen.i really do.but again, i shouldn't get my hopes too high or i might end up depressed.

if this wish will be granted,i would probably be the happiest girl in the world! ^_^ haha! but i really need divine intervention to make this wish come true...hmm..i think that's all for now.i'm really tired.and we still have ti practice tomorrow.i'd better have my "beauty rest" now or i'll be having big eyebags tomorrow .ciao! ^_^

exams!

2006-02-01T22:24:00.000-08:00

shucks! its our achievment tests and i really have to study! my grades are at stake here, you see.and i can't afford to have substandard grade this quarter.haller?!its already the last quarter,obviously,i SHOULD NOT have any sub grades.kakahiya naman kung meron noh.

haay.prom is fast approaching and after 48 years,at last my gown is already in progress. ^_^ and i'm glad that i'm okay with mom now and she's very supportive.hehe.i was kind of surprised but i'm really thankful that we're okay now.

i htink that's all for now.i still have to study for tomorrow's test.its physics and econ tomorrow! gosh! those two are my most dreaded subjects.okay...got to go!i hope i can update soon ^_^

*~fAeRiELaNd~*